Sunday, October 25, 2009

Gender: Spectrum or Binary?

I see it as both; the reason why is binary is as old as humans are, it has to do with evolution; with the biological characteristics of the male and the female body. At the beginning, millions of years ago there was not space for exploration. Your body was really a survival tool. The female body tend to be more vulnerable than that of man, and at the same time was in high demand. Since new member of the group would come only through the female body. Some researchers have pointed that before the domestication of the horse it was woman the main mean of transportation of goods when the gropes had to move to better lands. It was women who used to work in the fields etc; Women were vulnerable; they were important, therefore highly protected, but they also were exploited. This, over million of years contributed to the development of a culture surrounding this unavoidable differences. So there is the origin of that binary system, in order to survive you had to play your part, which was defined by your body, simple, there was no choice. Gender as I conceive it, is a cultural response to this unavoidable difference. We created this paraphernalia in order to appropriated to colonize, the process of creation made us powerful, and with this in mind we created many other things, religion, science, arts, in short; culture. As we learned how to control, predict, redirect the forces of nature, the strength in which the binary system was reinforced was decreased too. However it was to late it kept it going, till our days, is not something good or bad, it is here and I might say that it has life on its own. The women's liberation movement is an attempt to escape its influence, how effective was that another story.
In the transgender/transsexual phenomenon this two realities, the gender spectrum and the binary system play important parts. I would not say that is just one of them who move us to do what we do. I see that they overlap most of the time; we claim a biological difference in our brains and try to solve it by seeking refuge in living in another gender, so we create the narrative of the gender spectrum in order to have a destination, this is valid. Those who claim to be more transsexual than others I believe are missing the point.
If the feminine lives in you, is something that you only know, even if you never transition. As a social construct how did this came to be? I know it exist, I have it in me, I accept it in me, the feminine mystic. Is a mystery and I want to keep it like that, from that mystery come its strength. Besides, is a woman thing that of accepting nature, of living with it. Woman is so close to nature is mystery, is intuition, acceptance, Reason, is a man thing..
I see it as both, the reason; the reason why is binary as old as humans are, it has to do with evolution; with the biological characteristics of the male and the female body. At the beginning, millions of years ago there was not space for exploration. Your body was really a survival tool. The female body tend to be more vulnerable than that of man, and at the same time was in high demand. Since new member of the group would come only through the female body. Some researchers have pointed that before the domestication of the horse it was woman the main mean of transportation of goods when the gropes had to move to better lands. It was women who used to work in the fields etc; Women were vulnerable; they were important, therefore highly protected, but they also were exploited. This, over million of years contributed to the development of a culture surrounding this unavoidable differences. So there is the origin of that binary system, in order to survive you had to play your part, which was defined by your body, simple, there was no choice. Gender as I conceive it, is a cultural response to this unavoidable difference. We created this paraphernalia in order to appropriated to colonize, the process of creation made us powerful, and with this in mind we created many other things, religion, science, arts, in short; culture. As we learned how to control, predict, redirect the forces of nature, the strength in which the binary system was reinforced was decreased too. However it was to late it kept it going, till our days, is not something good or bad, it is here and I might say that it has life on its own. The women's liberation movement is an attempt to escape its influence, how effective was that another story.
In the transgender/transsexual phenomenon this two realities, the gender spectrum and the binary system play important parts. I would not say that is just one of them who move us to do what we do. I see that they overlap most of the time; we claim a biological difference in our brains and try to solve it by seeking refuge in living in another gender, so we create the narrative of the gender spectrum in order to have a destination, this is valid. Those who claim to be more transsexual than others I believe are missing the point.
If the feminine lives in you, is something that you only know, even if you never transition. As a social construct how did this came to be? I know it exist, I have it in me, I accept it in me, the feminine mystic. Is a mystery and I want to keep it like that, from that mystery come its strength. Besides, is a woman thing that of accepting nature, of living with it. Woman is so close to nature is mystery, is intuition, acceptance, Reason, is a man thing..

Sunday, June 28, 2009


I remember the day I found her, the day I was aware of my feelings toward her. I looked at the sky and gave thanks for for putting her on my way, in that moment the first thing that came to my mind was my transsexuality. But how curious, in that moment I would say I am not fucking transsexual I am a man. I was in love, I recognized it, but I was not madly in love, I was desperately in love.I wanted to scape one more time, so I look at that guy who I never talk to and told him thank you. So little by little my gender issues started to climb to surface, they did not play a direct part in the end of the relationship, but I was having a hard time trying to control them, I became extremely anxious and ambiguous, I tried so "hard" the normal role. When the relationship ended, in my mind I resent her the fact that she dumped me after "all I did for her which was" putting my transsexual desires on the side for her. Absurd. However my pain was unbearable, I so the world one more time as a hostile place, were I was in disadvantage. I lower my head one more time an went on with my life. More than a year later, I met a girl in this place, we had a great conversation, it filled up with smiles from her side. The next day I decide to stop my hormone regime, which I had been taking for almost 7 months. Nothing happened after then, I did not called her or anything. I was paralyzed impressed, again confused, how could this happen to me? I thought we agree that I as going to transition and in what I am, I said to myself. So i said well, forget about her, you are a man regardless, you feel great don't you? that feeling was so familiar, and short, here I am again. Gina is back...

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Lo moralmente inmoral


Una vez discutiendo con mi padre sobre la moral yo argumentaba que el concepto de moralidad era innecesario, incluso ofensivo para el ser humano de nuestros tiempos. Por su lado el argumentaba que no puede haber concepto de lo bueno sin que usemos el concepto de moralidad para definirlo. Me pareció una idea poco criticable pero seguidamente le pregunte: a quien le toca esta tarea de definir los limites de lo moral? Yo sabiendo sus antecedentes religiosos esperaba una respuesta religiosa, disfrazada de respuesta secular. Pero el respondió muy ligeramente que era una cosa de sentido común, nada mas ofensivo para mi en ese momento. Le dije que era una respuesta simplista, esto basado en las ideas que habitan mi cabeza en estos días, y que la han habitado con más intensidad en estos últimos años . Me encuentro cara a cara con situaciones donde la idea de lo bueno no es de ninguna manera obvia, entonces me veo paralizada intentando descifrar la idea de lo bueno para tomar la decisión correspondiente y seguir con mi vida. Pues después de observar cuidadosamente a otros individuos de nuestra especie e llegado a la conclusión de que muy pocos tomamos el tiempo para pensar en estas cosas. Vivimos en tiempos donde el tiempo cuenta, se cotiza todos los días, y en ese marco la velocidad de acción de o de respuesta puede en ocasiones ser un asunto de vida o muerte. En este orden de ideas son muy pocos los que pueden detenerse a pensar si su decisión es moral mente correcta o no, es en ese momento donde la moral se deslegitima. La moral, lo correcto, lo bueno requiere  de tiempo y dedicación, lo se, podríamos decir lo mismo de lo inmoral. Pero es el tiempo el que manda, ese mi punto, creo que en nuestros tiempos lo bueno es una especie de carambola. Se puede querer colectivamente algo bueno, pero todos sabemos que no necesariamente es lo que va a pasar. Es por eso que izo la bandera de la amoralidad. Que es simplemente reconocer que no tengo el presupuesto temporal para entrar y hacer lo bueno, ni tampoco puedo ser juzgada por hacer lo inmoral. Amoral implica que yo tomo el control de mi inmediatez, que intento liberarme de la presión del colectivo, que separo de la tendencia moral, porque atenta contra mi propia existencia, no puedo cambiar las reglas, simplemente no me suscribo a ellas, esperando que en un momento cambie y me permitan jugar con igualdad. En estos días paradójicamente, da la impresión de que lo moral contribuyera a crear problemas antes que solucionarlos.

Friday, May 29, 2009

Primer comentario

Este blog está destinado a ser un rincón donde lo opinable sea opinado,  señoras y señores (y el resto de nosotros) todo es opinable. Aquí comenzaremos desde cero, lo sagrado será corroborado o desechado.  Nuestra opinión escudriñara libremente, y en tono fresco pero serio por el laberinto de las culturas. Amoralidad será nuestra premisa,  partiendo de la conciencia de que lo moral no es necesariamente lo bueno para todos, por que al fin y al cabo cual es el bien común? Honestamente es difícil definir en nuestros tiempos de diversidad y competencia cual es el bien común. Es necesario definirlo tenerlo en cuenta, pero hay que tener mucho cuidado; es un concepto que cambia con nosotros.

 No nos conformamos con  los parámetros binarios, ya que en nuestra opinión no pueden definir la complejidad de la experiencia de vida. Pero tampoco somos seguidores ciegos de la razón esa que analiza clasifica y mide desmesuradamente, intentaremos constantemente mantenerla bajo control como un jinete a su caballo con esto implicamos que hay quienes ven en la razón una especie de maquina infalible que podemos dejar funcionando en piloto automático.